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Grief Has Caught Up With Me
Dealing with the Heartache I Can No Longer Outsail

It is rare for me to write about deeply personal experiences. My articles generally explore photography, hustling for online earnings, or amusing happenings along the riverbank near my home.
My remit has always been to keep things positive. After all, everyone is facing personal battles; why would they need to hear about mine?
I often scroll past unhappy titles, and I wouldn’t blame anyone for scrolling past this one.
However, it is important to acknowledge that we all have times when we look for an outlet for emotions that confuse, overwhelm, or frustrate us.
A few days ago I toyed with the idea of sharing how I deal with the moments when I miss my mother so much it hurts.
I pondered the fact that it may well help someone else.
It’s simple enough.
Meditation has helped me enormously in coming to terms with her passing two years ago.
I reflected on our shared passions, recalling my trip to a towering vessel the year following her demise.
Mum loved the sea and boats. As the guide showed me around, I thought about how much she’d have loved being on that ship.